22nd may 2009

a fiery passion hidden beneath an icy surface





today is the last day of the exam period!
which means no more homework, no more tests, and no more stress (hopefully)
WOOHOO!
unfortunately i have to go back to school like, during the june hols
cause i failed my a maths -.-
i'm still a little upset over my results ):
but nevermind. there's still the SA's
and the CA2s
gotta chiong for the upcoming few tests.
i have totally nothing to blog about!
gna watch 'angels & demons' with my pri school mates this saturday
the show'd better be as good as the freaking book.
but then again, it never is.

anyw, ms ang said my poster for the chemistry week was nice!
mr goh said so too, but i not sure if he meant it or what ._.
but i don't like it much myself.
aravin never help one ):
& i was selected to join some youth games thingy by mr kaha
means i'll miss school -.-
DAMN. i want to buck up on my studies so bad, and this happens.
still need read up on singapore?
bloody hell. why don't leave this kind of stuff to the history students?
or those good at social studies?
WHY ME! D:
its a good thing anyw.

k, i'll try to update my blog regularly from now on

& anyone who's free on 25th please come and visit our booth!
free drinks for first contestant :D

i want to go the museum thing ):
but teacher say helper cannot go
screw it man
AAAAAAAAH.

&hey roy, if you're reading this by any chance
cheer up!
its not the end of the world yet.

idk what to do now.

plurk boring
facebook boring
dota boring << seriously! blogging boring msn login then close window alr -.- l4d no sound, no multiplayer, no vs -.- runescape? not even as a last resort
i think i'll go punch the wall again


compulsary stuff during hols

CL oral on 3rd
chemistry on 9th
maths extra lessons on a lot of days
*can't remember, shit*
malacca farm visit
NUS stay (i'm kinda regretting this cause the only good friend i have inside is axel ._.)
CCA training
get enough damned sleep
finish at least one more poem?
make another craft sword
*out of ice cream sticks*

don't laugh!
i've got 2 amazingly chio swords of the same material.
i'll upload pics when i'm feeling a bit less.. inertia-full? haha!

*inertia - the reluctance to change an object's path of motion of speed
or something like that ):

k, i know today's post is long!
i really have nothing to blog about yet i'm spamming, LOL
more stuff will be uploaded on saturday, hopefully
tcs.

'I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work.'
Thomas Edison

i'll be quoting some stuff from books, shows and even web pages, just for today (:
to those who find it boring, sorry
i'm just killing time


'Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?'


definitely the latter.


'In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took
but how many moments took your breath away'


i've wasted 15 years of my life.


'the most important things aren't those which cost the most.
they're the ones which require the most sacrifice to obtain.'
'Sangheili'


what's the use of working hard and slaving away?
to earn money, while pollute the globe in the process?
i'd rather devote my time to helping animals
animals, not humans.
not a zookeeper. boredom kills.
not a trainer. they're dead cruel.
maybe... a conservationist?
or a naturalist, whatever.
if we really do enter a time of triage, by my point of view,
humans would, could, should be the first to disappear.


'those who take, but do not earn
must pay most dearly in their turn'

'past the hour, the prospect's black
too late, it's gone, it won't come back'


fans of HP and the 'philosopher's stone' & 'goblet of fire' should find these familiar

to start with the first one, i think it's quite true
take what you earn, and only what you earn.
any more than that, and that'll be greed.

the ten reasons why people die

Greed
Madness
Intoxication
Destruction
Despair
Nihilism
Sacrifice
Loneliness
Rage
Time


greed can be avoided once, twice, three times, but no human is born without desire.
madness happens whenever we lose control
intoxication of the soul, by killing and being sadistic
destruction, obvious. maybe the most common way for people to die.
despair, depression, loss of confidence.
nihilism, the belif that nothing exists. an empty shell.
sacrifice is probably the most noble way to die
loneliness is the least common, but the most torturous.
rage, obvious. loss of control.
time (old age) can never be avoided. lost time can never be taken back.


k this was taken from Bleach


ah, now what?
if this was boring just tell me and i'll think of something else to post up.
sorry! i'm really feeling folorn at the moment.
a piece of good/bad news
zheng hou drop to band 4!
good for me. bad for him.
but look at junjie's reaction when he was posted to band 3
HAR! WALAO EH! GOT ******? GOT ********? EH PLASE LAH, SEND ME TO BAND 4.
i rather get sent to band 3 than stay in band 4 to be honest.
but i really can't read chinese (sanskrit?)
what, i'm supposed to do some fcuking prep work? on the paper?
understand this, i don't want to drop to CL B
i don't want to disappoint my mum.
but that's all i'm capable of doing anyway.
nevermind.
if there's one thing i'm good at, it's pumping up my (and everyone else's) spirits

c'mon, bastard. you can do it.

& i was chosen to be 'mr how' in our class skit
wth?
guess 305 doesn't want me in their maths class ):

on the minus side,
- i'll probably laugh a lot, pause, then laugh some more while doing the skit.
- mr yeong will kill (strangle) me if i do one thing too well.
- the whole world will remember me as 'mr how' -.-

on the plus side,
- i'm a freaking good actor (but read minus point 2)
- i'm pretty confident i'm strong enough to crap up anyone who refers to me as 'mr how'

gotta work on me & aravin's chemistry poster. walao, he left me to do all the drawing.
name of our station,
CHEMIS3 :D
cause our group's Chem 3
lucky :D

and i wanna work on the class tee as well!
chunyin & juexin are doing it too
this is what i meant by the most important things aren't those which cost the most.
no amount of money in the world can generate this 305 bond :x
i sound like a freaking wuss
k! i shutup alr.



before i go, one last quote.
'you brought nothing into this world, and we will ensure you bring nothing out.'
XOXOXOXO

19th may 2009, return of SA1 marks

'I've had the strangest dreams lately - raging seas, howling beasts,
a Demon folded in black clouds.
I believe I know what it guards, and I will have it, to the chagrin of the faith-blinded zealots that challenge me.'
Cortana 2nd



hi, world
i've gotten back my very miserable exam marks
my maths sucked, english wasn't as good as usual, physics was beyond rubbish, and my mother tounge got worse than normal.

english. my trump card. getting some kind of ridiculously lousy score.

for e maths, i was very very disappointed.
what's the point in studying so hard if all i get back was some lousy borderline pass?
and maybe not even that.
i can't even write in mr yeong's reflection that i had been studying.
i'm just too ashamed to say so.

i feel like a failure.
some people are all
'oh, dont worry, i got worse than you'
and
'aiya, got some people get n score leh.'
do i look like i care?
oh yeah, sure, some might get lower marks than me,
but at the end of the day, i'm still the one failing all my exams.

sorry. just needed to get that off my chest.

on the plus side, went to SAC for MT paper marking
but afterwards when the results were shown i can't help but feel ridiculed.
my marks werent' that bad.
i'm not stupid. i really can't read the characters.
what the hell do you want me to do?
prep work? WHEN I CAN'T EVEN READ THE FCUKING CHARACTERS?
tell me how you do something that you don't understand.

like,
installing an altitude reader on an aeroplane and explaining how it functions.
just the blueprints!

i don't think so.

aaaah. i'm damn moody.
i don't want to talk anymore.
i'll just stay silent. as i have been all this while.