24th july 2009

i can't tell a lie to save myself.





hey guys.

ah, don't worry, i feel great. for the moment.
i just don't understand why the doctor won't let me go to school. i mean, i'm fine!
apart from those teeny little red blister things on my hands.
i'm really looking forward to monday, where i finally get a chance to open my mouth.
home's been really boring. want me to summarise?

WEDNESDAY:
eclipse supposed to come up but i was asleep.
woke at 9, went back to sleep at 11.
got online for a while then went to sleep til thursday

THURSDAY:
banned from computer. caught up on some homework. sleep.

FRIDAY (today):
sleep, sleep and more sleep.
got breakfast at elias, then finished up tutor's homework. still haven't got round to schoolwork though.

plans for saturday?
bowling @ e!hub, 2pm+ with family.
gna buy myself some new sandals and a new bag. and some other stuff too.

bo-ring -.-
obviously there won't be any pictures. unless you want to see the four walls of my bedroom.
been stuffing myself with food for something to do ._.
i know its unhealthy but... I'M BORED. screw it.
i'm probably the only person in singapore to look forward to mondays.


if you're reading this, thanks.
shows how much you want to know whats up with my life.
whether to jeer or confort me, i have no idea.
i might be doing more of this in future. keep your eyes peeled.

21st july 2009

its hard to keep track of time when you're always moving around.

305 class photo for racial harmony day.
we got 100% of people wearing the costumes! HOORAY! sure-win liao.

gave mr yeong a surprise birthday party, and i spent zhunzhun $8.88 on his cake.
I WANT MY MONEY BACK.
lol
think he was kinda touched though.

& WALAO EH. i kena HFMD. at this time, when H1N1 is rampant.
XIASUAY. and i see the pics of the hfmd patients, is like as bad as the ones you see on ciggs.

but there's always a brighter side!

+ no school
+ no H1N1 (scarely immune bodoh. LOL)
+ i'm not dead yet -.-
+ purple fingernails = weak heart, not cancer
+ not terminal

on the other hand...

- no school
- scared infect until friends
- miss lessons
- quarantined
- at home nothing do
- look damn disgusting
- feel like crap
- cannot swallow
- people'll avoid me after i go back to school
- become the bane of dumb jokes

this list so fucking long.
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME?
-.-
first H1N1, now this.
at least i can do another poem during my free time.
this time i'm gonna focus it on the inevitable... DEATH.
haha!

i'll hopefully be back next monday, on the 27th.
wish me health! :D
i don't wanna miss lessons & tests and all that. SIAN LA. screw life.

signing off blogger~

19th july 2009

Vampire
-Nicholas Ong



i wake from this sudden sleep, pain throbs in my head
new emotions well inside me, a deep feeling of hate
i rise from my bed, my rest, my brook of solitude
feeling the cold winds wash against my body nude

wondering about this cold, i stand up and dress
then glance down to see my muscly chest
somehow, my body had undergone changes
reluctantly i glance up to look at the hall's mirrors

horrifying shock, a terrified howl, disbelieving fright
the mirror's reflected my bed, the walls, but i was nowhere in sight
a knock on the room's wooden door changes my course of focus
a young woman enters, her face the ephiphany of ignorace

despite resisting my urges, i lunge, whilst my mind screams for her to back
but before she had a chance to act, long fangs sink into her neck
cringing in pain, life ebbs away, the blood pools on the floor
looking down at the body, i shudder, then let loose a roar

guilt, remorse, washes over me, overwhelming fear
why has it come to this, am i now a monster?
plunging my fangs into my arm, blood splashes onto the mirror
but somehow, in some twisted way, this actually feels better.



got this idea from Edward Cullen from twilight, which i am currently reading
a vampire who doesn't want to be a monster
its not very fluent, but i like the last paragraph.
more tomorrow.
school tomorrow.
SIAN

//:
i hate this feeling. running back and forth, chasing after what everyone's thinking, only to find that i've been a step behind.
so i run. i chase. i attempt to catch up.
but in the end, nobody really tells me anything.
and i'm left running for the rest of my life.