25th april 2009

lost in a maelstrom of emotions




i just woke up, i'm dead beat right now.
still have to rush through all my freaking maths homework
can't believe this, i actually slept for half a day
literally. from 3am-3pm
ahh, my legs still cramp like fcuk.
i blame the stupid 2.4
and since i'm 15 now, i have to do chin-ups!
GAHHZCHXZHCXZHCXZCXZ~
i'm aiming for gold this year too, but i scared the chin up cmi.

anyw.

the instant i finish this day ima gna CHIONG my homework all the way til midnight!
and after midnight. so you might see me online!
i'm lazy to upload pictures, but you're probably getting used to that.
if not, come pester me and you might sway my mind ;x

k cyas


P.S my bro's an annoying bit*h.
keep on kaypo my computer doing what.
how to talk on msn like that sia. nabei.
must turn my computer 45 deg then he cannot see. haha!





//edit
i'm back from dinner! & for some reason i'm in the mood to blog now, haha!
but idk what to say ._.
okay.
my msn still has virus. don't click on any fcuking links like i did
and for th last time.
it was a pop up and i clicked on it by accident -.-
anyw.
i've tried re-installing my msn, downloading checkup files, rebooting and searching in safe mode, changing my password and kicking my cpu.
none of which worked.
so if you perchance get some irritating message, shout at me in msn.
just don't insult me too badly, lol.
k, anyone has ideas please tell me.


OHOHOH
i've finally set up my ST blog
idk if want to link here or not (what'll i put for the sub-name?)
but anyway,
www.nicholasong-305.blogspot.com
is the name of my ST journal!
lazy to make updates though.
ah whatever.

23rd april 2009

regret. regret. regret.
shape a new person from who you used to be.


equating youth with ignorance is a failing that comes with age.







i dnt mean to sound so dejected, but well, i am dejected.
had a little' chat with axel just now, and he raised a point,
'for some reason, everybody is regretting now.'
i think for a grand total of 2 seconds and realise, he's right.
regret & guilt can change a person's character.
twist and turn it until he/she becomes someone else.
do i feel guilty? a lot. now i've seen what's happened.
do i regret more, after all this? more than i can say.
the best thing to do now? i have absolutely no idea.
its gone too far for me to just say, right, let's patch stuff up and go back!
haha.
the night air has addled me.
but i seriously lovelovelove the night air.
the silence, the peace, the tranquility.
lately there's been a lack of anyone able to communicate like this with me,
but on the other hand. i never was much of a talker anyway.
i want to reflect more on myself, but i don't know enough about me to do so.
i want a full, unbiased account.
how much of an asshole i really am.
just to know. just to understand.

deep down, there's something everyone fears.
a constant. the same for everyone, no matter how good or evil they are.

loss.

the fear of losing.

losing their life. - responsiblity.
losing loved ones. - lust.
losing ambition. - goals.
losing everything that they care for. - love.
losing their face. - stature.
losing a challenge. - confidence.


if i'm wrong, pray do tell.

haha, my wish now
is that more people can chat to me about these kind of stuff.
but, come morning again, and there goes my mood.
today's post is wordy, i know.
sorry, but that's how i roll.

23rd april 2009

__
got kp-ed just now, i gtg this noob keep on spam vulgarites at me
knn, i want leave one ah?
i not like you mother die alr so free play whole day can?
hope your whole family dies in a car crash.
i'm hoping it with all my heart.
and hopefully you'll live on and suffer as a vegetable for th rest of your fcuking life.
mother hongster.
limpei go yr ancestral hall kan their tablets
cbk.
ah fcuk him lah -.-
noob.

22nd april 2009, anthony's TRUE birthday

ripped from junhao's blog

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
In school for enrichment
2. Who are you in love with?
oh you'd wanna know, dont'cha
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
i'm thinking of doing so
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
um. my cheeks? i have a 'rosy' complexion, lol -.-
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
uh, i can't remember. last week?
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
and you would like to know because..?
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
i wish.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
what town?
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
i wish.
10. Are you hot?
extremely. nothing to do with the weather though :x
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
plain water
12. What are you wearing right now?
topless. so no webcam for the time being!
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
i would let the car wash do it, if i had a car. or a wash.
14. Last food that you ate?
still eating, fish!
15. Where were you last week at this time?
can't remember.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
as anthony's birthday present?
17. When is the last time you ran?
just 2 minutes ago, for the toilet. LOL!
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
乒乓圆. LOL!
19. What is your favorite animal?
dogs? coincides with my nickname anyway.
20. Your dream vacation?
gold coast, australia? and TAIWAN!
21. Last person's house you were in?
Anthony
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
split my skull when i fell and hit my head against a kerb. 17 stitches! i think.
23. Have you been in love?
more times than i can count D:
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
of course! lol.
25. Last play you saw?
lunchtime performance, by our fabulous LITERATURE class
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
natural charm. don't believe me ask anybody.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
do more homework, forgo sleep. again.
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
i ain't got no MySpace.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
to school. big trip, probably to NUS (everybody go please!)
30. Ever go to camp?
duh.
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
i'm honorable! honor roll, i'm not so sure though.
32. What do you want to know about the future?
who's gna be my girlfriend? :D
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
ya think?
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
school dentist maybe, doctor not probably.
35. Where is your best friend?
at lan, i think. 50% of his life is spent there.
36. How is your best friend?
studying worse than me, and that's saying something.
37. Do you have a tan?
yes, and it makes me look more sexxaye ;D
38. What are you listening to right now?
the msn sound, 'dede dum'
39. Do you collect anything?
presents!
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
xiaopang! haha!
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
long time ago. i was drunk and shouting at the sky.
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
what else can i drink it through from?
43. What does your last text message say?
uh. 'Next Bus arriving, 3 minutes', from IRIS
44. Do you like hot sauce?
if its as hot as me, NO. it'd burn through my tounge. :x
45. Last time you took a shower?
this morning, i'm going again soon
46. Do you need to do laundry?
thank the gods, no.
47. What is your heritage?
idk what heritage means so... im destined for second.
48. Are you someone's best friend?
doubt so.
49. Are you rich?
if rich qualifies as having over $1k, i hope someone'd give me $1k so i can just nice be rich.
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
doing my homework and sleeping at the same time.


zhenghou fought with justin today, and i got hit in the process ._.
lol, but zhenghou temper very 'hothothot'
end up osborn also go find justin.
i over there like peacemaker & extra sial.
in the end everyone go general office listen to vp & ms tan talking
aiya, MT band one teacher lah.
fortunately no case.

there was enrichment today, and went late. after a short while me, roy & junhao went over to 306
it was a TON more fun there, and the instructor says he remembers me from somewhere
but idk, lol. he looks familiar too!
anyway, there were only a few people in class, + 2 couples
junhaoxweiling, aliciaxklinsmann(sp?)
roy & i were sian-ed up there
anyway, there was this game where you had to smack the person's lap
next one said ouch, next after that says the next person's name
aiya, i frgot what its called
anyway. i sit beside coach eric? damn sian. i kena by him about 7+ times, my leg go red
but i smack him more times :O
went back aft school and home-d.
pictures to be uploaded tomorrow.

21st, i think

i'm finally done with the pictures! woohoo!!


your's truly

check out how much water we drank! estimated 12+ bottles

me & axel :D

this was supposed to be a o8 photo, but me & chunyin go kaypo :O

lazy name everyone, LOL

me, xiaopang!

the shirt we got fr anthony
damn exp sia

supper

our little arcade
smoke and smoke until got all the smoke in the air.
LOL, joking.

anthony's bedframe

anthony getting cake face paint by osborn

halo 2! my childhood fantasy, still rocking on

as a favour of good will to all my lovely readers out there, i've decided to name everybody (with a few nicknames, haha! :D) -.-
well uh, starting from top left to bottom right.

TOP:
zunjie(piggy), jingheng(fungi?), chunyin(earthworm), axel(young'un), louis(graph guy LOL), junjie(wa sian), osborn(我fcuk你), yonglong(mr burger), yongjun(xiaopang)
MIDDLE:
yuting(this one i just know only, nothing to put. LOL), zhenghao(RE: read yuting), roy(muay thai), derrick(没毛), junhao(maths nerd)
FRONT:
anthony('steaaady'), me(uh. duapai?)

thats the pictures done.



it always seems, somehow,
that we've been talking for years
but at the end of the day, i realise
no words were spoken at all
and that it was all in my head.
does anyone else feels the same way?
or am i just being paranoid?



today i fell asleep while bathing, cause i slept at 00 00 last night.
seriously. it was about 1/3 an hour till my mum banged on the door.
as a result, i went to the bus stop late, but met up with tianshen there.
went to west plaza to get waffles, but the store just opened.
so he went to the toilet and when we got back the bus just left. -.-
was supposed to be late today, but thanks to the rain, security guard cannot hear bell.
or maybe he dnt wna get wet, so never catch me
either way still heng
fell asleep during maths and physics (test!)
&congrats to the CO SYF guys on getting... SILVER.
at least its shinier than gold.
i think mr goh cfm go home swearing at me sial.
time passed real slowly today, for some reason.
&& i'm glad to say, i listened to my earpiece in EL and SS and i DIDN'T GET CAUGHT!
woohoo!
it really is that boring.
i'm thinking of gng back to audi, but for some reason cannot download.
i need more friends to spice up my life ):

i've gotta burn the midnight oil again today, i've got a ton of homework dying to be completed
& i'm afraid i'll be dropped from a maths & pure physics this year ):
i'm overworking myself, yet i can't grasp the damn formulas

alright, i wna watch the 乒乓圆(typo? haha) now. 15minutes left.

& i'm a lot better now. though my mood fluctates from time to time.
k, cya