23rd april 2009

regret. regret. regret.
shape a new person from who you used to be.


equating youth with ignorance is a failing that comes with age.







i dnt mean to sound so dejected, but well, i am dejected.
had a little' chat with axel just now, and he raised a point,
'for some reason, everybody is regretting now.'
i think for a grand total of 2 seconds and realise, he's right.
regret & guilt can change a person's character.
twist and turn it until he/she becomes someone else.
do i feel guilty? a lot. now i've seen what's happened.
do i regret more, after all this? more than i can say.
the best thing to do now? i have absolutely no idea.
its gone too far for me to just say, right, let's patch stuff up and go back!
haha.
the night air has addled me.
but i seriously lovelovelove the night air.
the silence, the peace, the tranquility.
lately there's been a lack of anyone able to communicate like this with me,
but on the other hand. i never was much of a talker anyway.
i want to reflect more on myself, but i don't know enough about me to do so.
i want a full, unbiased account.
how much of an asshole i really am.
just to know. just to understand.

deep down, there's something everyone fears.
a constant. the same for everyone, no matter how good or evil they are.

loss.

the fear of losing.

losing their life. - responsiblity.
losing loved ones. - lust.
losing ambition. - goals.
losing everything that they care for. - love.
losing their face. - stature.
losing a challenge. - confidence.


if i'm wrong, pray do tell.

haha, my wish now
is that more people can chat to me about these kind of stuff.
but, come morning again, and there goes my mood.
today's post is wordy, i know.
sorry, but that's how i roll.