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I am only one
But still I am one
I cannot do everything
But still I can do something
And because I cannot do everything
I will not refuse to do the something that I can do
- edward everett hale







today was pretty hectic
slept like a... fucking retard cause my throat was killing me.
toss & turned for over 4 hours before i finally got up and swore.
and, guess what? my voice has degenerated to a rasp.
FUCK IT.

accompanied mum to suntec to book some tour, even though my throat was burning a hole from the inside. good right :D
actually the only reason i went there was cause...
SUNTEC. the air con, the stores, the cute girls.
left early to finish up my massive workload.
& wow. i'm starting to like maths!
my next big goal will be to overcome my terrible chemistry and physics, then attempt the worst subject in the history of killer subjects...

CHINESE.

so sian~
tomorrow, coin counting, idk for what.
my over-enthusiastic relatives la.
everything also want help out.
sigh.

i'm getting feverish. screw ballzxzxzx LA.
stupid sore throat. stupid fever. stupid everything.
i've spent more time off school this year than all the others combined.
i'm getting old~

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fickle

'come on man. the world won't end just because she left you.'
'that doesn't help.'
'well, you didn't ask for help.'

the truth does hurt.




here's the more select few of the photos!
left out a lot cause quality was poor.

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caught on camera for making out with his purple bag!



got super annoyed with myself when i couldn't solve the stupid rubik's cube.
why do i have such a lousy memory -.-

a ton of maths questions to do, thankfully wasn't all that hard.
though still had a few i was unable to solve.

extra chem lesson today, wasn't all that bad.
lamed around with the star for about the whole lesson.
still haven't gotten started with the pythagoras switch for our physics project.

tuition later, sian.
& i have a terrible sore throat.
downed 3 spoonfuls of honey and still pain.
sianjipua. hungry also don't dare eat anything.

this post is getting lengthy.
ta.

unbelonging

a decision made without prior planning is just uncertainty.




class performance today, kinda sucked IMO.
the trees never move, people never sing.
only nice part was the advert. lol!
ah but its over now anyw.

its kinda scary, no? exams just two months away.
and in a year or so i'll be kissing east view goodbye.
GUYS. after graduate must keep in contact hor!

i'm a little lazy to upload pics from the rehearsal now.
tomorrow, kay?

no tuition cause tutor lost his phone \m/

k, cya!

BACK TO MAPLE AGAIN.

would you commit a crime if you knew you could get away with it?
i used to say no. i'm not so sure anymore.



this time it's bootes.
very wtf, the instant i see the stone head my whole person sian. LOL!
just playing it to pass time, until zh finished his hellgate: london & lends me the disc :O
jiayou! faster finish!

class performance tmr, though i dont think it'll be a big success.
i mean, what, not even one whole rehearsal?
oh well. at least nothing to win here.

sunburn's finally cleared. woo~
i want go swimming soon! gotta work out my 'fats'.
my blood poison level is so high i can practically dissolve my own bones.
i blame my 75% meat diet. 25% is on rice, fungi, dairy products and fish.
not one bit of green stuff at all. shiok right?

i'll upload pics once the performance is over cause i don't want other class people come see, then know the whole storyline.
nehhh. so you'll just have to wait.

i've decided to change my career choice.
sure, working with animals is great, but it doesn't put food on the table.
i'd rather be tired and my future family happy than me happy and everybody hungry.
-.-
so what now?
bio stuff's definately out. can't stand blood. makes me high :O
mechanics is boring~
businessman is beyond boring
lawyer is taxing & boring. and i have no wish to defend criminals.
chef? might consider. though i can't bring myself to kill live animals so...
i might write a book or something? boring.
EVERYTHING'S BORING. i'll end up with an office job.

bad sore throat. been shouting too much.

gna sleep now, big day ahead.
goodnight!

毋

i've grown up. please give me privacy.




毋

like, wtf. what is this word?
came up in chinese paper 2 today, as a phrase.
i think teacher also give up hope on me already.
i still rmb what i wrote for mcq.
2244331333
and i really tried to do it. just that the numbers look way off. damn~

and another wtf thing. last night sleep w/ aircon on, cause freaking hot.
sleep wake up whole body sweating.
& while sleeping i had another dream.
a long road with a mountain on one end and a foggy field on the other.
on the foggy end is one old man. on the road is me & a young girl.
then the old man talk until damn random. talk about stones and fishes.
i have no freaking idea why.
woke up after that.

time to revise my physics! ta.

fire burnin' on the dance floor

'god is equal. He gave all of us 24 hours, nobody gets more or less.'
-mr benjamin yeong!




i'd be lying if i said i'm happy when you are.
but i'm just jealous others can do what i can't.




sunday
intended to go to bedok to eat satay? requested by junhao wahahaha
met junjie at white sands and trained over.
met up with zhenghou outside station and not long later junhao came.
went to challenger to find zh's game (hellgate: london)
i wna download too! sounds damn fun sia.
ended up at sports stadium LAN for l4d
me & junhao vs junjie & zhenghou
infected macham win everybody sia.
didn't go to bedok, in the end ate at KFC.
afterwards went to grandmother's house for another round of dinner
more chicken, so sinful~
'jiu jiu yi ci' wont die la. LOL
afterwards i went over to kenneth's house, omfg long time never go alr.
i stil rmb got once almost at his house ton to watch fifa :D

today, intended to go for training. but mr yeong made us stay back until damn late so...
friday la.
i want every friday go swimming! D:
there's a ton of stuff i want to do.

i want to learn archery
i want to learn dancing
i want to learn piano
i want to learn swordsfighting
i want to play more bowling
i want to have more swimming
i want to go skydiving
i want to write a book
i want to write better poems
& still have a lot more.

hah, i seem to be talking to myself.
i'm not crazy, just bored and more than a little lonely.

chionging homework tomorrow. there really is no time.
night.

hmm. optimism really isn't my thing.
time for a 'darker' side of my post, if it deserves such a romantic tone.

i've been having more... frantic(?) dreams, about one person.
i don't care if you believe me or not.
just know that it's nothing romantic or fancy.
it's haunting, it's terrifying... and overwhelmingly exciting watching things play out.
hoping it'd somehow turn real.

heat's making me cranky.

7th month's approaching.
i'm no longer as afraid as ghosts as i used to be.
woo. that's cause i've got other stuff to worry about.
ta.