19th may 2009, return of SA1 marks

'I've had the strangest dreams lately - raging seas, howling beasts,
a Demon folded in black clouds.
I believe I know what it guards, and I will have it, to the chagrin of the faith-blinded zealots that challenge me.'
Cortana 2nd



hi, world
i've gotten back my very miserable exam marks
my maths sucked, english wasn't as good as usual, physics was beyond rubbish, and my mother tounge got worse than normal.

english. my trump card. getting some kind of ridiculously lousy score.

for e maths, i was very very disappointed.
what's the point in studying so hard if all i get back was some lousy borderline pass?
and maybe not even that.
i can't even write in mr yeong's reflection that i had been studying.
i'm just too ashamed to say so.

i feel like a failure.
some people are all
'oh, dont worry, i got worse than you'
and
'aiya, got some people get n score leh.'
do i look like i care?
oh yeah, sure, some might get lower marks than me,
but at the end of the day, i'm still the one failing all my exams.

sorry. just needed to get that off my chest.

on the plus side, went to SAC for MT paper marking
but afterwards when the results were shown i can't help but feel ridiculed.
my marks werent' that bad.
i'm not stupid. i really can't read the characters.
what the hell do you want me to do?
prep work? WHEN I CAN'T EVEN READ THE FCUKING CHARACTERS?
tell me how you do something that you don't understand.

like,
installing an altitude reader on an aeroplane and explaining how it functions.
just the blueprints!

i don't think so.

aaaah. i'm damn moody.
i don't want to talk anymore.
i'll just stay silent. as i have been all this while.