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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
AM I YOUR DOG? AM I YOUR SON?
NO.
i decide where i want to go.
i decide the friends i make.
i know what i'm doing. I'M NOT AS ROTTEN AS YOU THINK I AM.
just because i pierced my fucking ear, failed a couple of exams, and look like some rotten apple doesn't mean i'm beyond redemption.
'if you have been given freedom to go out, you must abhor to the set curfew.'
SCREW YOUR CURFEW.
that isn't freedom, that's prison.
if i go to some void deck to slack, shake my legs at some coffeeshop or hang out with smokers, you say i'm behaving like an ahbeng.
if i go to some chalet with guys and girls, you think i'm gonna have fuck up every girl in the place.
if i don't go back by my- no, YOUR designated curfew, it means i'm hanging around people with negative influences.
WHATS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU.
i need some time to cool down.
sigh.
went to e hub w kts just now.
didn't manage to watch anything cause tickets for my sister's keeper were sold out.
all the other shows were too late. for me, that is.
for more info check out my rant up top.
z.
school tomorrow. and meeting with mr ee before that, for CLB.
anyone wants breakfast tmr?
and to whoever's spamming at my cbox.
i'm not affected whatsoever by your comments.
the only thing i hate you for is making me waste time deleting the tags.
do me a favour. after you've finished hating on me, hack into my cbox account and delete your own tags.
and please. you're fucking boring.
make your hate tags more interesting. maybe then i won't delete them.
GREAT DAY OUT HOMIES.
you're.. different. somehow.
i miss the old you.
wait, i take that back.
you've not changed..
i've just taken off my mask to show the coward beneath the skin.WOO I'M BACK HAHA.
i frgot where i stopped last. so i'll start from wednesday!
body exhibition at science centre. boring as heck.
lots of bones and muscles, but none of them actually moved. DUH.
looks so fake, but they're real bodies. THEY'RE REALLY BRAVE TO DEDICATE THEIR BODIES THAT WAY LOL.
night, had a really big arguement with mum.
I'M STILL FREAKING PISSED. but nevermind.
thursday, went to ECP.
met up w/ weilun early in the morning to get the waterbombs.
was late by a bit. ecp was boring. no time to do anything.
headed over to white sands myself because nobody else wanted to go with me. CRAP MAN.
afterwards, tianshen's house. his girlf was over there so it was kinda awkard.
THEN THEY COME MY HOUSE FOR DOTA.
waste electricity only. HAHAHAHA.
went back to tianshen's house at midnight to help him download L4D. noobshit, don't even know torrent.
argued with mum again when i got back.
_l_
friday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENNA.
got back report books, then went to play area to find axel, xiaopang & irene.
lunch, home, then MRT STATION.
was supposed to meet dean at tampines MRT but i was late.
& my mum allowed me to ton! cause i'm hopeless. haha.
so anyw, they didn't get their shades, i didn't look for my wallet and kfc was full of noisy angmohs.
AND, AXEL AND IRENE WERE SHOUTING 'RIDE ME LIKE A HORSE' OPPOSITE CINELEISURE. HAHA!
axel & i practised our accents a bit. HAHA!
xiaopang went home & the rest of us headed to axel's place.
raining like wtf. AND I CAN'T FIND MY UMBRELLA NOW LOL. DAMN!
had 'dinner' around 11, prata and satay!
then drew all over our faces with some pink marker, to celebrate the halloween mood. (and axel's phone got inked HAHAHAHA)
conked out at around 3am. PLAYED NEOPETS TO STAY AWAKE LOL.
went home at 2pm today. very tired, sweaty and sticky haha. BUT VERY FUN CAN.
pics will be up once i get them. see ya (:
27th october 2009
every step that i make is another mistake.
my results suck!
(OVERALL)
EL- 67
sucks for me. i was expecting an a2 or sth. too complacent?
MATHS- 66
not bad, but not good by any stretch of the imagination.
A MATHS- 55
considering my failing rate.. this is quite good.
MT- 38
i'm not dropping. i'll work to the bone.
HUMANITIES- 65
social studies pull me down -.-
PHYSICS- 45
kns i know. i have this feeling that mr goh's looking down on me. i'll show him.
CHEMISTRY- 54
this isn't too bad either. look at the comment for a maths.
i think i'm falling sick. blocked and runny nose; can hardly sleep at night. you know how torturous it is to be breathing through your mouth for 6 hours straight?
body exhibition at science centre tmr.
not very enthusiastic about going. should i skip?
i've got some plans for the holidays (finally!).
dance class? chalets? and a ton of school remedials?
and maybe a job or sth. if i can find the time.
my moneybox is draining itself empty.
had a GREAT chat w/ brenna last night. much thanks!
&axel, cheer up man. you ain't gonna drop to NA.
going for a short nap.
see ya everyone.
hope you live in a better world than me.
dead to the bone
i've grown up.
after skipping training for so long, i went back ytd.
now my whole body is sore. no stamina alr -.-
mr goh told us this story.
i've heard it a million times; you probably have too. but here it is anyw.a caterpillar starts as an egg. it hatches, then eats and eats.
it then forms a cocoon around itself and begins to metamorphasise.
when it's about to emerge, the butterfly struggles to get out.
if you cut the cocoon to help the butterfly to get out, blood won't be forced into its wings.
it will never be able to fly.
in other words, you have killed the insect.
not word for word, duh.
but the meaning is there.
if he were to drop us to combined, we will survive, but never be able to soar.
to motivate anyone reading this post, i've fashioned another story.
a hardworking ant and a lazy ant were caught in a web.
since the spider was out foraging, they had a small window of time to escape.
the hardworking ant began gnawing on the web, whilst the lazy one sat there waiting for rain to break the web.
the hardworking one bit for a long time without any visible progress. the lazy one said 'why bother working so hard? the spider won't be back for a long time and it looks like it's going to rain.'
the hardworking ant replied 'i'd rather choose my own route than go where life take me.'
the lazy one said 'ah, suit yourself.'
an hour passed, and the hardworking ant managed to snap through the web. he said to the lazy ant 'i'd save you, but i don't want to risk getting caught again.'
the lazy ant laughed. 'you'd get caught by the spider! have fun!'
in two minutes the hardworking ant reached his nest.
the lazy ant just hoped. to his delight, it began raining.
sure enough, he broke free just as the spider was returning to its shelter.
he laughed, and a raindrop fell directly on to him.
the ant was stuck, and was eaten by the spider.
we can work. or we can hope.
working might not always help, but it prepares us for any opportunities.
hoping might get us where we want. but it won't get us out.
i'm not as good a writer as i want to be.
but all the same, i hope this helped readers somehow.ta.
post- exam sian.
butterflies
hey guys (:
school was a drag today.
physics did worse than i expected, i don't even know where i went wrong.
english was.. good, but not up to my expectations. no, lower by a lot.
maths wasn't that sucky, though still not good enough.
gotta write an essay for mr goh later.
on how much i value success.
oh, and hey anonymous.
i've banned you and all your sad alter-egos from my cbox. cool huh.
i'm not gonna dedicate a long post to a loser like you, so HAHA.
what you gonna do now? hmm?
21st october 2009
one foot in hell and the other in wonderland.
as i look back on this incredible year,
childlike dreams
it seems as though only yesterday when i'd been sitting for my PSLE papers.
only hours ago when i'd entered east view for the first time.
a few minutes when i walked into 305.
and now, the big O's are almost upon us again.
time really flies.
in a few more years, it's over to NS, then work, and eventually, i'll die.
makes you wonder what life is about, doesn't it.
anyway, a maths wasn't that easy for me.
as expected, my killer subject was TRIGONOMETRY.
not only that, but i didn't know how to draw the damn graph.
cause i've been revising all along on logarithm graphs.
speaking of which, i left one question out. _l_
gotta clean up my house again. messy like wtf.
ta.
tired
if only you knew.
freaking tired. and my whole body's sore.
bit of a sad case, 4 hours at mac and completed a total of 4+ stupid questions.
but i'm proud of how far my logarithms have progressed (:
though i still suck at modulus graphs, trigo graphs and trigo.
esp proving. sucks sucks sucks.
reached home around 11 last night?
had this creepy feeling that somebody's following me home.
& some sleeping cat woke up and ran away when i passed it. _l_
i'm feeling very sian-ed over the coming holidays.
there's nothing to do. i'd rather be in school.
