23rd january 2009

'there is no such thing as perfect'


recently, there's been a lot of stuff troubling me
i thought it was the exam stress
after doing some soul-searching, i realised that it isn't academic problems
apparently, i'm not the same person who stepped into east view twelve months before
i've neglected advice, thinking i'm oh-so-much-wiser than everyone else
i've begun to ignore my friends, thanks to my thrice-blasted pride
of course , there's a lot more, but i dntwna ruin everybody's mood by crapping about myself (:

firstly, im gna draw up a 'CNY resolutions' (:
bit stupid, i know, but i had no reason for a new year celebration
and i'm basing this resolution thing entirely on negative feedback i've gathered over the years


no more being a violent asshole (anthony, junjie)
dnt look down on others (brenna)
dnt be lamed (just about everybody)
not to be an arrogant bastard
etc: bhb
(everybody)
mai kaopei (anthony, junjie)
dont be lazy (my mum)
dnt be guniang/ gay -.-
like, th stuff i wear, not my behaviour (alicia, brenna)
take th initiative in stuff
etc: homework, revision, friends, relations, projects
(pri teachers, mum)
and, to eat more veg (:
(MYSELF, and about everybody else)

for those who have something negative for me to improve, feel free to tag it (:
and for those who don't have anything negative to say, its cause you dont know me long enough yet (:

positive traits, NONE
really. zero, nada, kosong.


today was boring. slept a little during chemistry and literature. PE was not as interesting, suicide nia. i'll take 2.4 anytime.
chemistry, ms ang show us a video
uh, i think it went like,
a perfect man and a perfect woman met each other on a perfect day
they got married and drove off in their perfect car
halfway, they met santa claus (i know very random)
being the perfect couple, they gave him a lift
suddenly, there was an accident (HAH! what happened to perfect now?)
only one person survived. who was it?

answer,
the perfect woman
cause there's no such thing as santa claus,
and there's no such thing as a perfect man
(how true. fcuking lechers, whole lot of 'em)
THEN, next part
and if there was no santa claus and no perfect man, then the woman must have been driving
thats why there was an accident
BAH. what happened to a perfect driving liscence?
or a perfect straight & smooth road, for heaven's sake

anyw, A maths have stupid QUIZ
i think i did fairly well for Q1 and Q2, but 3b i stumped
sub P,5 into the second solution
shit lah. i sub it into P,Q
the question no P, so i sub 5 into Q
end up dunno what kns answer
shit lah. i think i lost 5+ points on that one
and ms ayesha swapped minghui's seating position with lionel
me and aravin were like, oh shit, damnit, sian lah

after school, at kopitiam for awhile slackslack, then went for judo
my poor head keep on kena injuries
once or twice get smacked by my senior for being bhb
-.-
then my ear stick forget take out AGAIN
crappy memory
finish training my ear rotten lo, looks like a giant blackhead on my earlobe
seriously, whole lobe swollen and red, yet got one black stick in it
aft training, i see th st john people, woohoo.
just in time to meet up with em
glad i did, too

junjie, junhao, guowang and me went to giants' for dinner
guowang so genorous, 'treat' all of us to sushi, and if you get my meaning, it cost abt $30+
with 'free drink' some more
green tea and etc
we were like, BUFFET AH!
halfway, junjie 'oh shit, aaron's USB'
yep aaron, if you're reading this, rmb to kan jj on wed
on our way to dining area, we dared each other to do sth,
'RAAH *hungry ghost face with chopsticks raised' to any civallian
laughed like siao, almost peng
ate so much tamago i dnt want to see another yellow strip of unborn nuclei for two weeks

that's what junjie and junhao had while waiting for th 'job done'
god, 2 eggs each, how do they stay so skinny
i helped them to break the eggs, cause they dnt dare ._.
scaredy-cat! LOL
look what happened to junhao's 2nd egg
damn cool right, its the egg white slopping out, but unable to break through the membrane
first course we had about 1.5 boxes of sushi each
and with water too
look what happened to the place after we were done eating
an unnessecary blot on an otherwise perfect landscape
i stepped on th tuna sushi, wth
used th stick to scrape it off
& just a footnote for those who're hungry, junhao dropped abt half a box of sushi near the tree
we were like, WALAO! then, aiya, nevermind lah, free anyway
i wasn't full aft th first course, so we went for th main course
sorry guys, i know i was being selfish there
brought the guys over to near my house there, its within walking distance only!
had our food at the multi purpose hall, since everywhere we went all malays there
this time 2boxes each, with the sushi roll and green tea. AND, salmon sushi! WOOHOO
love it man, only hate hate HATE the wasabi. smells like shit
lols, guowang my idol sia, so rich. HAHAHA

random picture while waiting for our second course
jun jie/hao revising their stuff, tch
all the commands and what, so blur
eat finish, i see them to the bus-stop and walked home myself
AND, while walking to the computer, there's this idiot moth
fly fly fly then kena until my head
head not enough, still bang into my shoulder
last time, hit until my LOWER LIP
wth, and i just licked it and it flew over
i think it got stuck there for a second before i blew it away
so disgusting sia.
heng never kena until my upper lip as well, or there goes my first kiss, LOL
now i'm at a loss for what to do
nobody ever seems to be online and free at the same time
everybody so guai, study study study -.-
or else it's 'BUSY' , 'IDLE' or 'AWAY'
not encouraging

but heng, next few days have stuff to keep me occupied
relatives coming over for reunion dinner :D
my mum wants me to invite my friends over too -.-
but i dnt want!~ GUYS, KEEP AWAY PLEASE! :D
cause my house is like, an insect haven
beetles, moths, bees, ants, those big flying ants, mayflies, mosquitoes, etc.
you name it, i've got a couple of them
even a cockroach in my drawer once
no idea how it got there
and there's a dead beetle under my com
at least, i think it's dead
*poke
nope, it's alive. i just threw it out of th window D:
not a nice way to die, but better than th computer radiation anyw
alright, it's getting late, time to sign off blogspot
takecare, and stay happy (:

th reason why i can't ever relax?
why i'm so taut?
why i'm so emotional now?
why i've become like a hungry ghost?
i shouldn't have bottled everything up
it's too late to care. there's nothing left.
i always assumed there'd be a constant that'd never change
no matter how low life gets, as long as that constant stays constant, i'm fine
but you changed that constant
you made it hard for me to smile honestly
you dragged us into it, knowingly or not
no matter what happens, i'll always remember,
you made my life miserable at best